I reread the first and caught inspiration again. This one is a little more hard hitting than the first, though they start off the same. It's meant to strike a nerve. It's what I wish someone had said to me when I was going through a crucible.
To those that struggle with issues they have been afraid to come
out of or acknowledge, now is the best time to go ahead and come out.
Saving what you can do today for tomorrow is just
justification for your fear.
Your apprehension is your perpetual downfall.
Your hidden issues do nothing but eat at your heart like tape
worms. They suck out all of the things that make your life healthy and good.
To all of those like me who have struggled with this faulty
human flesh, face that thing that terrifies you and rise to your potential. You
hinder yourself by keeping secrets. It’s just a matter of time before they come
out despite your efforts or kill you.
You will unwillingly and subconsciously kill your
relationships, your goals, break your own spirit and eventually self-destruct because
you refuse to confront that skeleton in your closet that you’ve gotten so used
to that you’ve learned to ignore it.
Your secret skeletons will kill you piece by piece until you
are just another empty, emaciated skeleton waiting to be shoved into your loved
ones’ closets for shame.
If they are the good kind of family they will never give up
on you but they will suppress you nonetheless just as you suppressed your
issues not because they are ashamed of you, but because they are ashamed that
they couldn’t help you.
If they are foolish, they will not only suppress you into the
dark corners of their minds but they will forget you completely for shame
because they misinterpreted your struggle and your pain for being too lazy to
pick yourself up and stop defacing the family name.
Come out and face your fears or risk slipping into
dankness of cobwebbed gray matter with only calcified consciousness for conversation
partners. Rage against the twilight your secrets are shrouded in.
Should you choose not to, a caveat is there to greet you at
the door to the closet you’re about to be stuffed in. Her only job is to
welcome you with a smile and an echoing,
“Congratulations, you failed before starting.” “Congratulations,
you’re wasting everybody’s God given time because you’re taking up our head
space and worrying us to death since we care so much for your wellbeing.” “Congratulations,
welcome to the closet, smell that stagnated air borne by secrets.” “Take a deep
breath, congratulations; you’re now breathing to death.”
To those that struggle, do not lose hope. I’ve been there. The fact that you struggle means that you’re
not someone else’s skeleton yet. So, clean the skeletons out of your own closet
now, because when you do, like I did, you’ll discover that your fear of coming
into light is a lot less daunting that your fear of staying in darkness.
